Saturday, January 30, 2010

A PINK SATURDAY DREAM OF SPRING

XOXOXOXO


AMY





WELCOME  TO  PINK  SATURDAY


BEVERLY  IS  OUR  HOSTESS






MANY  OF  US  ARE  BLANKETED  IN  ICE


AND  SNOW.


AT  MY  HOUSE,  WE  RECEIVED  ONLY  A  LITTLE


BIT  OF  ICE  BUT  WE  RECEIVED  9  INCHES  OF


SNOW.


I  SAID  A  PRAYER  FOR  ALL  THOSE  WITHOUT


ELECTRICITY.


I  AM  GUILTY  OF  NOT  TAKING  THE  TIME  TO  APPRECIATE


ELECTRICITY,  GAS,  WATER,  AND  THE  AIR  I  BREATHE.


MY  PRAYERS  CONTINUE  FOR  HAITI  AS  I  WATCH  THE


HORROR  UNFOLD  OVER  THERE.  IT  IS  SO  EASY  TO  FORGET


BECAUSE  IF  I  DON'T  WATCH  TELEVISION,  IT  IS  OUT  OF


SIGHT  AND  MIND,  AS  THEY  SAY.


IT  HURTS  ME  TO  SEE  PEOPLE  IN  SUCH  NEED  AND


HAVE  LOST  SO  MUCH.



I  WAS  READING  A  BLOG  THE  OTHER  DAY  THAT  WAS  LISTING 


ALL  THE  THINGS  ABOUT  BLOGS  SHE  DIDN'T  LIKE....AND


ENCOURAGED  OTHERS  TO  TELL  WHAT  THEIR  GRIPES  WERE


ABOUT  BLOGS.   SHE  INTENDED  FOR  IT  TO  BE  A  VERY  POSITIVE


THING  I  AM  SURE.


SOME  OF  THE  THINGS  PEOPLE  LISTED  WERE:


BLACK  BACKGROUNDS


WANTED  TO  SEE  REAL  PICTURES  NOT  PICTURES  FROM


THE  INTERNET


POSTINGS  THAT  ALL  THE  SENTENCES  RAN  TOGETHER


AND  DID  NOT  HAVE  INDENTITATIONS


LONG  WINDED  PEOPLE


I  THOUGHT  ABOUT  ALL  THESE  THINGS.  I  THOUGHT  ABOUT


ALL  THE  FOLLOWERS  THAT  HAVE  LEFT  MY  BLOG  FOR  ONE


REASON  OR  ANOTHER......WHETHER  I  DON'T  VISIT  THEM


ENOUGH....WHETHER  I  AM  LONG  WINDED......WHETHER  BECAUSE  I


PRAY  FOR  PEOPLE.....BLACK  BALLED....


THAT  IS  WHY  I  STARTED  THE  BLOG


SIMPLY  DEBBIE


BECAUSE  THAT  IS  WHO  I  AM


I  KNEW  NOTHING  ABOUT  THE  COMPUTER  WHEN  I  STARTED


MY  BLOG.  I  AM  WHAT  I  AM.  I  DIDN'T  KNOW  GRAPHICS.


IF  I  TELL  YOU  I  LOVE  YOUR  BLOG  OR  YOU  PERSONALLY,


I  MEAN  IT.  I  DON'T  AND  CAN'T  TELL  SOMEONE  SOMETHING


JUST  TO  TICKLE  YOUR  EARS.  I  AM  LIKE  MY  DADDY:  HONEST


AND  YOU  ALWAYS  KNOW  WHERE  YOU  STAND  WITH  ME.


I  LIVE  IN  A  SIMPLE  HOME....IT  IS  NOT  FANCY  AND  FULL


OF  ANTIQUES  AND  FANCY  DISHES.  I  NEVER  RECEIVED  A


THING  THAT  WAS  MY  GRANDMOTHERS.  I  HAVE  NOTHING  LOVELY


TO  SHOW  BUT  THE  MEMORIES  OF  THEM  IN  MY  HEART.



WHAT  I  WAS,  WAS  A  MOTHER  THAT  ONE  DAY  HAD  TWO


CHILDREN  I  LOVED  VERY  MUCH  AND  THEN  ONE  DAY  I


HAD  A  SON  AND  MY  DAUGHTER  WAS  IN  HEAVEN.


I  DIDN'T  KNOW  WHO  I  WAS  ANY  MORE.


I  HAD  TO  FIND  MY  PLACE


HOW  COULD  I  FIT  IN  WITHOUT  A  DAUGHTER


WHAT  OF  ANY  VALUE  WOULD  I  HAVE  TO  BLOG  ABOUT



THINGS  GO  VERY  SLOW  WHEN  YOU  ARE  IN  A  SEASON  OF


WINTER.   IT  IS  NOT  EASY  TO  BE  STILL  WHEN  YOU  ARE  WEARING


A  BLANKET  OF  SNOW.  IT  IS  SO  COLD.


BUT  I  KNOW


"SPRING"


IS  COMING







ANGEL  HUGS


THANKS  FOR  SPENDING  A  PART  OF  YOUR  DAY  WITH  ME


THANK  YOU  FOR  LISTENING  TO  ME  SPILL  MY  HEART


I  NEED  SOME  ENCOURAGEMENT  AND  LOVE



49 comments:

  1. Hi Sweetie!!
    Ya' know...We all started blogging for different reasons. Whether it was for friendship or recipies or inspiration but blogs are the personal thoughts of each.
    I say that anyone who finds them offensive or intrusive just don't blog at all. I love my blogging friends & it doesn't matter if their blog is black or long winded....
    So-o-o-o... in short...Blogs are as individual as the ones who write them!!
    I love all my blogging friends & I will blog as long as I have bloggers to blog with!!
    Have a Wonderful Weekend!
    Love,
    Marilyn
    xxoo

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  2. Storming the heavens with you,
    andrea

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  3. Hi sweetie~ I have always found your blog to be just perfect the way it is, you speak from your heart and you care about others, who cares what color background someone has. A blog is a journal of yours and you can make it whatever you want it to be and if someone else doesn't like it they don't have to read it:) I love you just the way you are Debbie, and be watching for your package to arrive:) Hugs, Carmen

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  4. 'Morning Debbie,
    I don't mind your long posts at all and I appreciate your honesty too. Thank you for sharing your pretty pinks today and Happy Pink Saturday to you. Still praying for you, my friend. Have a lovely weekend.

    Blessings,
    Sandi

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  5. HI Debbie,
    I hate to see all the challenges and downsides of relationship building spill over into blogs, don't you? I think if people start feeling judgmental, it may be the Lord's prompting them to find something else to do. Blogs should hold love and encouragement. I have found such angels and I cherish their words. I like your heart and I wish you a sweet dose of happy today - sending your words out to waiting hearts is a good thing.

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  6. I just love your heart. Simple or complicated...it'a ll lovely.

    Love to you from snowy, icy, very cold Edmond, OKLAHOMA!

    xoRebecca

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  7. Hello Debbie
    Your needs are lonely within, but without there are many who love and embrace you. A piece of you in beyond the vail it is there that it abides just on the other side of a vail. It is though a thousand miles, memories and moments away. This day you are here, we are all here together.
    Never alone but there are those times of loneliness. The other day I was reading Ecc. 2, and I see of the things that are for a season.
    It is a gift from God to have joy and take pleasure in our days. There is a time though for every thing under the heavens.
    May your season come where your eye can see the beauty within and around you. Your ears hear the kindness afforded you. You are loved.
    big hug!

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  8. Happy Pink Saturday my dearest Debbie. Sending you wishes of a warm and sunshiny day!
    Great post as always!

    Prayers and thoughts.

    XOXO
    Regina

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  9. Funny you bring that up on your blog about the other blog and her pet peeves! I read that same blog,and thought to myself that's why I don't have one yet.I am a very honest person myself(I been told too honest)! lol Oh well,and just go on if you don't want to read or see what I have. It probably was for positive,but I read a blog before that had the longest list ever that went on and on!! I just think they don't know any better and don't have anything else to do,but complain!! Anyhow,keep your blog just the way "you" are! There is always something that reminds me of you and Amy girl everyday! I swear I have never seen soooo many butterflies in the stores on things since I meant you and Amy! That just reminds me to make sure I say a prayer for you and your family!! My small group in church still continues to pray for you as well!!
    Love and Prayers!
    Natalie,

    mommynoodles27@yahoo.com

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  10. Debbie, I, like most bloggers, never thought I was going to have visitors to my blog! I began blogging for my own enjoyment, and I try to continue blogging for my own enjoyment. I'm so glad someone who doesn't like my blog does not have to come read it. I'm so glad that nobody can tell me that I can no longer blog, because my blog is not worthy of the space it is taking up. I'm so glad that I can visit the blogs I want to visit, and nobody can tell me that I have to visit any blog. I am honest on my blog and in my comments. (I just happen to love a lot of people and a lot of things, so that becomes apparent on my blog and in my comments). I cannot even imagine being in the place where you are now. I think the loss of a child is such a loss of part of the mother that the mother must have to totally re-make herself (don't know if that makes sense or not). You are not the same person you were when Amy was on this earth. I am also aware that the last years of her life, you spent a lot of time helping Amy get to appointments; being with her at the hospital; taking care of her in your home. I do know just a little about that, and after my mother died, I always felt like there was something I needed to be doing that I was forgetting to do. It's kind of a helpless and lost feeling. You are still finding your way to being Debbie, a mother without her daughter. I'm not sure how I got off on this tangent, which seems to have nothing to do with your post. I just felt that I needed to say these things to you. Do you go to Mella Bella blog? Melanie is experiencing some of the same feelings that you are about the loss of her son. My heart breaks for both of you, and I keep you in my prayers. Hang in there sweet Debbie! laurie

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  11. Well, I'm back. I wrote you a book in my first comment, and here I am back with another comment! I don't know if my comments always show up on your blog. Your blog is one of those that (at least on my computer), the word verification doesn't show up until I'm about to exit the blog. I'm afraid I may sometimes exit before I enter the word verification. Just wanted you to know that I may be visiting more often than you know. laurie

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  12. I too started as a blogging 'newbie' not long ago. I'm sure I made many social blunders and etiquette breaches. Oh well.

    It really is all about how big is our God and how far He can reach. When I had my stroke I had people from all over the world praying for me. God answered those prayers!

    Long winded or short and sweet, for those of us who choose to follow your posts and keep you in our prayers ... well, it's because we want to.

    God bless you today.

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  13. You are such a beautiful person Debbie. I dont understand why people would say what people should do on there own blog. This is our space to decorate and write about whatever we want! Your words and beautiful and from the heart. I adore you and wish I could just give you a big hug right now!!!
    Love,
    Amy

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  14. Debbie,
    Bless your heart for your honest, straight from the heart words you posted today.

    I'm not very good at keeping up with blogging for a multitude of reasons. But when I peeked in on Beverly's PS and scanned the list of today's participants [I'm not one of them!] I saw your name and here I am!

    In my humble opinion, and is worth exactly what it costs - nothing!-- just like each of us are unique, our blogs will also be unique. That is the beauty of blogs...there are no rules! Of course, courtesy for others and good manners are always nice :}

    I can only imagine the rollercoaster of emotions you and your family must be going through after losing your precious daughter, Amy. Losing a child has to be one of the hardest roads to walk. A friend, who also lost a child many years ago, once said to me, some days when I wake up and see the sun shining, the flowers blooming, I am overwhelmed with grief. How dare this day be so lovely when my heart is crushed beyond recognition. And then, without explanation, the same type of day will warm my heart, giving me hope that better days are yet to come.

    While I can't claim that this is a universal/common feeling among those who have suffered deep loss, it has stuck with me all these years. Grief knows no boundaries. There are no hard and fast rules. Even sunshine can trigger a wave of it.

    My heart goes out to you...and I thank you for sharing your journey. You may never know, this side of heaven, the hearts you've touched and encouraged by having the courage to share the harder pieces of your life. You've shared so beautifully and now may the encouragement and prayers you so generously offer to others return to you tenfold.
    xo
    Sue

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  15. I think we all started blogging for different reasons and it is wonderful that we can choose to follow who we want to and for what reason we want to. You are a blessing. Hope it warms up soon. Hugs, Marty

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  16. Started a comment, then wiped it out. I started blogging for several reasons. Knew nothing about it when I started and still don't know a whole lot. I look at it this way - If we all blogged the same way, the world of blogging would get pretty boring, and I would have to get off this computer and get some things done around the house for a change. :-D
    Stay warm and have a great weekend.

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  17. Hi Debbie,
    Your refreshing and beautiful honesty is what drew me to your blog. I watched as you lost your sweet Amy yet you continued to hold others up in prayer. You are an awesome woman of faith and we love and appreciate you for that. I will write you when my computer is up and running again. Hugs my friend!

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  18. It is so good to have you back for Pink Saturday Debbie! I do so hope you are making your way toward Spring, I want that for you so much, you deserve it, but don't let anyone rush you, it takes as long as it takes. You are entitled to grieve as long as you need to and we are all here for you, this family of bloggers. Happy Pink and God Bless you Debbie.

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  19. Your honesty and emotion touch my ♥. I will rail against the insanity of it all when times get so confounding and strained...

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  20. Debbie,
    I just found your blog and I find so inspirational and your words are beautiful!!
    God bless you!
    I am so sorry about the loss of your daughter. I can't even find the right words to say, but it saddens me to hear about the loss of ones child.
    I am a mother to 4 little girls and they are my world!!
    All of your bible verses are so beautiful and I know I need to be reminded of Gods unconditional love and reading this blog today helped me so much with the struggles I am facing!!!
    Nice to meet you- hope to see you on my blog one day!!!
    Love,
    Jenn~

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  21. Debbie, bogging should be fun and as long as it is respectful should be the way we want it. I do not blog for others to awe over, I blog because I love the connection with people and I dearly love my blogging friends, they provide a soft place for me when I fall in Blogland......just be yourself sweetie, we love you as you are....:-) Hugs

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  22. Winter is a time to reflect, renew and find strength in the quiet voice of God. I find I haven't been writing as much, or visiting blogs as much, yet, I am. I am the person I was changed each moment by life around me. I tend to listen this time of year, go inward, and listen to that gentle voice of God. He alone knows my heart, He alone knows my needs, He alone knows you, your needs and He alone Holds you forever in the palm of His hand. Listen to the voice of winter. Heal from within. The inner Truth will stir, with the lengthening of each day, and once again, life will sing it's song of Glory. The Son does shine! Blessings to you and yours. I do so love your words. Know you are in my thoughts and prayers though I too, may be listening to His voice and not visit as often. The days are getting longer and the Son does shine and I will be as you will be.... Loved by the one who Loves all His children, forever. Blessings to you and yours. Love and Light, Nina P

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  23. Dear Debbie, my mother used to say that no mother should ever outlive her child and I know it is true. My prayers continue for you and your family...You are such a blessing to all who know you in this blogging world and I know it's true with your real life friends.
    hugs, bj

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  24. We all have different reasons to blog or not to blog. Your snow scene with trees is simply lovely. Have a nice week-end.
    Joyce M

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  25. Debbie, this post was so lovely. I think we are what we are on the inside, it doesn't matter what the shell looks like that we live in. Some have gorgeous shells, but no heart, others are lucky enough to have both. But you my friend have the best of all..........a heart of gold. I don't know why people stop following, I have had that happen and for some reason, it bothered me. I had to remind myself that I blog for myself, not for followers. Be yourself always and you will attrack the type of people to you that you should. I can't imagine listing things that I don't like on a blog and encouraging others to chime in. That seems very hurtful to me. Not all of us have high educations or "stuff." We should be able to express ourselves as we can or are able. We don't all like the same things. I think blog listings can be very hurtful sometimes, I would hope that would never be the intention of the writter. You have a gift of the written word and I hope that you can find peace in sharing what is on your mind. Followers that have left, have taken what they needed from you and others will find you. Happy Pink Saturday Debbie, be well and safe my friend, Char

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  26. You remind me of the description of Melanie in the book Gone with the Wind:

    "She looked--and was--as simple as earth, as good as bread, as transparent as spring water."

    I think you are wonderful. Right now you are grievously wounded by the vagaries of life. I am sad for you, sad for the shadow on your heart. But of course there is a shadow, because you are without Amy here on earth. The shadow will always be there, but you will be able to walk in the sun again. It is a very hard path to tread.

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  27. You know what Debbie, I blog for myself, actually. I don't have 20 sets of china, lots of silver, crystal, home decor all that stuff. I am a simple person who writes to maybe touch someone out there with a bit of faith, hope, and love mixed in with a cup of tea. I love reading your blog. I feel as if I have known you for a long time. I know you are still grieving Amy as we all are along with you. Just keep your eyes on Jesus. He will bring you through the tears. Winter is a time to rest and reflect and prepare for new life.
    Just be who you are. We love the Debbie we read about!

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  28. Debbie, I visit your blog often although I do not always leave comments. I have watched you be an incredible inspiration to many people, an instrument of God for sure to share what faith really means. Keep on praying, Debbie, and keep on blogging. You have much to contribute.

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  29. Hi Debbie, I just popped in to say hi. I've only just "met" you, but I can tell you that I appreciate your honesty and your beautiful heart. I agree that prayer is important and that we all need a little love and encouragement from time to time. Sending you warm hugs and smiles from TX.
    Blessings,
    Patricia :o)

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  30. I never saw the other blog, but I started blogging to look for the good things in life and in me, and I found some of the nicest people I've ever known. What a tremendous gift. Thank you for being part of the gift.

    Hugs and lots of warm wishes for these cold days, dear Debbie.

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  31. Happy pink Saturday and I too am thankful for this circle of women who have come into my life as well - you are one! sandie

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  32. Hello Debbie,

    Hhhm I'm sure it was meant to be a positive - - as a guide perhaps.

    Every person have different likes, dislikes, preference, . . .

    A blog for me is something that reflects a person who owns it. Or sometimes, it can be an escape of thoughts like what I do sometimes.

    As to what reason one may have for starting one, I sure hope it is because it is what makes you happy and that you find rewarding.

    Showing/sharing a piece of yourself out there is being brave, if it responds to some people then how amaazing that will be to find such kindred spirits. But like I said, Not all people are the same, so to whoever we may hve met here then we welcome it. If others don't feel the way you feel, then let us hope she/he finds another that will make here happy too.

    Mizpah,
    Li

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  33. Hi Debbie, sweetheart, it was so good to hear from you again. Thank you for your lovely comment to me. Please try to stay warm in all the snow and ice. Sending you the warmest Florida hugs I can muster.

    With hugs and love, Barb ♥

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  34. Debbie, Sweetie, this is YOUR blog and you can write anything on it you want. I don't have a big home either, not tons of dishes or many things that others have but, that is not what this is all about. At least not to me.

    Blogging is about just exactly what you are doing. Putting your heart out there and finding others with like interests to chat with, to get to know and learn to appreciate and love.

    I think you are right. I think the one that started that conversation was trying to do a positive thing. Sometimes it is difficult to read some of the blogs. Whatever the case, there are thousands to chose from and explore and wonder at their individual contributions!

    Debbie, another thing. You STILL have your daughter. I don't want to stick my nose into this too far, as it is a very touchy and emotional subject. But now and then some of us lose a dear child, a parent, grandparent, friend, sister, or brother or husband. Or as with me, two of my precious husbands. The first highschool sweetheart, friend, lover, companion and the father of my seven precious children.

    I don't know you, but you sound like the sweetest of people. Keep your wonderful blog.
    I lose followers now and then and sometime don't even know which one. It hurts for a moment and I always wonder why, but not for long. They have their reasons. I lost one yesterday. It made me sad, but I don't question it as much as I first did, however it will always hurt.
    I, like you, am still learning blogging, have been attacked at one point by someone I barely knew and it nearly made me close down my blog.
    I didn't. Now I am glad.

    All of us have a lot invested here..and yours is wonderful.
    My heart goes out to you during this trying time.
    Your daughter is close to you even if you cannot see her. Surely you know this, and she will always be your daughter.
    Much love and a big hug.
    Mona

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  35. You always write from the heart and I appreciate that about you. I like "Simply Debbie" because of this.

    Take care and God bless,
    Janelle

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  36. And you've got encouragement right here, Debbie! Thinking of you and willing to let you carefully find your way through winter till you see spring again!

    Happy PS and much love...

    XO,

    Sheila :-)

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  37. My first visit here but it won't be the last.
    Blogs are meant to be personal. keeep on being true to you - yuo won't fail.
    JJ

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  38. That was so well written. Is Anastasia on your sidebar a relative or a family friend? My son was also diagnosed with Hodgkin's this past October. He's in remission, but has to complete the chemo and then radiation.

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  39. Sweet Debbie don't change anything about yourself or your blogs. We all love you just the way you are. I miss our talks too.
    I have been trying to go to your other site but for some reason can not find it. I need to save it if you send it to me I would love to go by there.
    Love
    Maggie

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  40. Hi my sweet Debbie!

    I'm so sorry I haven't been by! With working & computer problems off & on I just haven't been able to visit like I want to.

    How are you doing Debbie? I know your heart is breaking for your sweet Amy. At least we know you will see her again when the Lord calls you to go home. And I will get to meet both of you, I see us singing and dancing and giggling like young girls!! Of course we will be wearing gorgeous hats!

    Our family is doing good. Sam's parents are taking it one day at a time and living for Sam's 3 little brothers. They are getting involved in programs for children who have lost their hair due to illnesses & treatment and are finding some solace in that.

    Wishing you a Happy Valentine's Day my sweet darling and God's blessings, Sherry

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  41. Just wanted to add that even though you are ready to leave this place, our work is never done. There is always someone that needs our words of encouragement, our prayers, our comfort & kindness. I know you know that. You've got to take good care of yourself for us that still need you for a time. You are such a comfort to me Debbie and so many others. Just needed to speak that from my heart sweet one.
    hugs & blessings, Sherry

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  42. Sitka has an award for you at All Gods Creatures.
    Blessings, andrea

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  43. Got you an award on my blog in memory or Amy.
    ~Randy

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  44. Dearest Debbie,
    I find so much encouragement from your blog. There is no one that write with such honesty and with such faith that your prayers will be answered. In my saddest days recently, I've popped in to read some of your posts from way back and they made me smile, they've made me cry but it was good because you wrote what was in your heart. I agree with a comment posted by JJ..blogs are meant to be personal. This blog is you....don't let anything make you feel that your blog needs to change.

    Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers
    Deanna :D

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  45. I agree with you too...wow...44 comments! I am blest if I get 4 or 5 and I've been blogging for 3 years...how do you do it? LOL....

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  46. Debbie, thank you for this lovely post...You are a beautiful, honest lady...and i thank you for that too...I apologise for being scarce...
    it was unintentional...I am having a few health issues now for a few months...no answers yet.
    awaiting tests...so, i have not been visiting blogs much...i hope to get back in the swing of things.. i'm keeping my blog going..but sometimes feel bad that i am not commenting much... but, such is the world of blogging!...
    we do what we can...I have met so many lovely folk on the blogs..you included! So, rest assured we all still love you...
    hugs and xoxo, gypsy

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  47. Sweet art.

    Bellísimo !!!!!

    Desde Argentina ,Liliana

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