AMY DAWN, MY BUTTERFLY

THIS IS A PICTURE OF AMY WITH DR. DEXEUS LAST HALLOWEEN, 2008.

IT WAS A VERY HAPPY TIME FOR HER, PASSING OUT BAGS OF CANDY

THAT WE HAD MADE FOR ALL THE STAFF. 30 MINUTES LATER SHE

HAD A FEVER AND WAS RECEIVING IV ANTIBIOTICS.

AMY IS VERY CRITICAL AS I TYPE THIS. SHE IS IN PAIN EVERY WHERE

AND FOR THE FIRST TIME, WE HAVE TO POSITION HER AND SHE CRIES

OUT IN PAIN. I SHOULD SAY IT IS THE FIRST TIME SHE WILL

ALLOW US TO POSITION HER.

MY HEART IS SO FULL OF PAIN AS I TELL YOU WITHOUT AN

INSTANT MIRACLE, OUR AMY IS ABOUT TO FLY FREE.

I WANTED TO THANK ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE BEEN SO VERY

KIND TO HAVE MADE HER LAUGH AND SMILE THROUGH THE

BEAUTIFUL CARDS AND GIFTS YOU HAVE SENT.

YOUR KINDNESS WILL NEVER GO UNNOTICED AND YOU WILL

BE REMEMBERED FOREVER BY THIS FAMILY, ESPECIALLY ME.

WHAT DO I WANT YOU TO KNOW:

1. AMY IS MY ONLY DAUGHTER AND SHE HAS BROUGHT ME, HER

DAD, AND HER ONLY BROTHER SUCH GREAT JOY, AS WELL AS

HER GRANDPARENTS. SHE WAS THE FIRST GRANDCHILD ON THE RAGAN

SIDE AND BOY WAS SHE SPOILED.

2. SHE HAS TAUGHT US HOW TO BE BRAVE AND NEVER, EVER GIVE

UP THE FIGHT...SHE LOVES LIFE

3. TO STAND FIRM IN WHAT YOU BELIEVE AND SOMETIMES BEING

STUBBORN IS A GOOD THING

4. SHE IS A BEAUTIFUL ARTIST

5. THAT HER HEART IS AS BIG AS ALL OF TEXAS AND OKLAHOMA

TOGETHER

6. SHE LOVES ANIMALS ESPECIALLY DOGS AND CATS

7. SHE IS A CHRISTIAN....THAT SHOULD BE ON THE TOP

OF THE LIST

8. SHE WAS DUE TO BE BORN ON MAY 27, 1976 AND WAS TAKEN

BY EMERGENCY C-SECTION ON 7/6/76........OH THAT IS RIGHT

ALMOST 2 MONTHS OVERDUE....SHE WAS IN TROUBLE AND

WE ALMOST LOST HER AT BIRTH.......SHE HAS KEPT US

WAITING EVER SINCE.....(THE CANCER RESEARCH TEAM MADE

NOTE OF THAT FACT WHEN SHE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH CANCER

AS A CHILD...IF A CHILD DIAGNOSED WITH RHABDOMYOSARCOMA

WAS ALSO A BABY THAT WAS OVERDUE)

9. FRIENDS AND FAMILY ARE VERY IMPORTANT TO HER

10. SHE COLLECTS BARBIE DOLLS AND HAS OVER 350, AND

ONLY ONE OF THEM HAS EVER BEEN OUT OF THE BOX

11. SHE IS A LOYAL FRIEND WHO IS ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU

12. SHE HAS LOTS OF FRIENDS BUT ONLY ONE BEST FRIEND,

NAMED LEILA, WHO ALSO HAD CANCER

13. SHE LOVES HALLOWEEN AND IT IS ALWAYS A BIG DEAL

FOR WHAT SHE IS GOING TO BE EVERY YEAR....MY CLOSET IS

FULL OF HER COSTUMES....NOT THE CLOSET AT HER HOUSE

BUT MY HOUSE. SHE PLANS TO BE DOROTHY OF THE

WIZARD OF OZ THIS YEAR

I AM REALLY JUST WASTING TIME...I SET AT HER BEDSIDE AND

THEN I BECOME SO OVERCOME WITH GRIEF I HAVE TO COME

TYPE IT OUT....I HAVE TO GET THE GRIEF OUT SO I CAN GO BACK

AND SMILE. THE WAY WE LOOK AT EACH OTHER, WE DON'T HAVE

TO SPEAK. AMY KNOWS SHE IS SO SICK.

PLEASE PRAY FOR US ALL.

ANGEL HUGS

LOVE

Debbie