Saturday, October 31, 2009

HAPPY HALLOWEEN OUR SWEET AMY DAWN

WE, EVEN IN OUR GRIEF, COULD NOT LET THE DAY GET BY OUR SWEET, BEAUTIFUL
DAUGHTER WITHOUT WISHING YOU A HAPPY HALLOWEEN. YOU KNOW I
ALWAYS WISHED YOU A HAPPY HARVEST BUT IN YOUR MEMORY, "HAPPY
HALLOWEEN" BABY GIRL.
IT HAS BEEN 7 1/2 DAYS SINCE YOU LEFT US. DADDY AND I ARE SO VERY
GRIEVED AS WELL AS RICHIE AND MEGAN, LEILA AND KORBI, GRANDMOTHER AND PAPA,
GRANNY AND POPS, UNCLE TEDDY, AUNT NANCY AND UNCLE BOB, AUNT SUSIE AND
UNCLE MILT, AUNT SHERRY AND UNCLE TONY.
ALL YOUR COUSINS, NIECES, AND NEPHEWS MISS YOU VERY MUCH AS WELL
AS OTHER RELATIVES AND FRIENDS.
I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH AMY. IT WILL TAKE DAD AND ME A LIFE TIME TO
EVER STOP MISSING YOU.
LOVE AND HUGS AND KISSES
WHAT I WOULDN'T GIVE TO HUG YOU AGAIN.
LOVE YOU
MOTHER AND DAD
XXOOXXOOXXOOXXOO

Friday, October 23, 2009

UPDATE ON MY BELOVED AMY DAWN

I WILL BE BRIEF. THURSDAY AFTERNOON AMY SLIPPED INTO A COMA.
SHE DID SQUEEZE MY HAND, MY MOTHERS' AND HER BFF LEILA'S HAND.
EARLY THURSDAY MORNING SHE WAS WILD WITH PAIN AND KEPT CLAWING
MY ARM AND SAYING, "COME ON!"
I KEPT ASKING, "WHERE ARE WE GOING?"
I KEPT ASKING IF WE WERE GOING TO TAKE A RIDE ON THE MAGICAL
PINK BIKE, ERIN PAINTED FOR US FROM
SHE KEPT PULLING ALL HER COVERS OFF AND TRYING TO SWING HER
LEGS OUT OF BED. AND BRUISING, MOTTLING STARTED EVERY WHERE.
WE HAVE HAD THE SWEET HOSPICE NURSE AT THE HOUSE A LOT.
HER O2 SATS ARE RUNNING 76 - 85 AND THAT IS VERY LOW FOR
SOMEONE WITH A TRACH. ALL WE CAN DO IS KISS HER, KEEP HER COMFORTABLE,
KEEP HER PAIN FREE, TALK TO HER, AND KEEP CHRISTIAN MUSIC PLAYING
THROUGH THE HOUSE AS WE PRAY AND CRY.
I SAY, NEVER, EVER, EVER GROW WEARY OF DOING AND BEING PRESENT AT
ALL YOUR CHILDREN'S ACTIVITIES, DANCE LESSONS.....I ATTENDED SO MANY SOCCER
PRACTICES AND DRAMA LESSONS WITH RICHIE, I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO
WHEN HE WENT AWAY TO COLLEGE. I LOVED BEING A MOTHER AND ALL
THE PTA MEETINGS AND PROJECTS.
WE DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS AND OUR LOVED ONES CAN BE GONE
IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE.
PLEASE HUG YOUR LOVED ONES A LITTLE TIGHTER AND TELL THEM HOW
MUCH YOU LOVE THEM. CALL A CHERISHED FRIEND AND MOST OF ALL CALL
UPON THE NAME OF THE LORD.....MAKE SURE YOU ARE RIGHT WITH JESUS, AS
THIS LIFE IS SO TEMPORAL. WE ENTER THIS WORLD WITH NOTHING, HELPLESS
AND CRYING....WE LEAVE THIS WORLD TAKING NO EARTHLY POSSESION'S EXCEPT
ETERNAL LIFE....AND IT IS UP TO US WHERE WE SPEND ETERNAL LIFE.
JOHN 3: 16
I COULD NOT CONTAIN MY GRIEF IF I WAS NOT ASSURED I WILL SEE MY
BELOVED AMY AGAIN, WHEN THE LORD CALLS HER HOME.
THANK YOU FOR YOUR CONTINUED PRAYERS.
TODAY WHEN YOU COMMENT, TELL ME ABOUT THE FUNNIEST THING THAT EVER
HAPPENED TO YOU AND I WILL TELL AMY ALL ABOUT YOUR RESPONSES.
SHE ALWAYS LOVED TO LAUGH. I ALSO SHARED WITH RICHIE THAT YOU
ALL WERE PRAYING FOR HIM. HE IS PHYSICALLY SICK...HIS WIFE GOT SICK FIRST
AND HE CAUGHT IT BUT HIS BODY IS ALL RUN DOWN.
ANGEL HUGS
LOVE
Debbie

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

AMY'S SPECIAL HALLOWEEN/FALL DECORATED TREE

AS YOU ALL KNOW RECENTLY I WON A GIVE AWAY AT LYNN'S....
BEFORE I ENTERED THE GIVE AWAY I SAW A POST ABOUT HER
PUMPKIN TREE WITH PUMPKINS PAINTED AND CREATED FROM
LIGHT BULBS. THEY WERE NOT PART OF THE GIVE AWAY BUT I
JUST HAD TO TELL LYNN SO MUCH, HOW I LOVED THEM.
WELL TO MAKE AN OLD STORY SHORT, I WON THE BEAUTIFUL
GIVE AWAY AND MUCH TO MY EXCITEMENT SHE SENT ME A
FAMILY OF 5 ADORABLE, CHARMING PUMPKINS. THEY MAKE
ME SMILE EVERY TIME I SEE THEM.
WHEN I POSTED ABOUT THE GIVE AWAY, I TOLD HOW I WAS
GOING TO MAKE A TREE FOR AMY AND SEVERAL OF YOU
PRECIOUS LADIES ASK ME TO TAKE A PICTURE OF THE TREE.
THE PICTURES DID NOT TURN OUT VERY GOOD BUT THE TREE IS
GORGEOUS. WE RECEIVE COMPLIMENTS FROM EVERYONE THAT
COMES TO THE HOUSE.
MY SISTER BOUGHT THE TREE AT A THRIFT SHOP FOR HERSELF
AND WHEN SHE SAW THE GIVE AWAY FROM LYNN SHE GAVE ME
THE TREE SHE HAD PURCHASED. MOTHER LET ME USE HER
LIGHTS FOR THIS SEASON AND DONATED SOME RAFFIA SHE HAD.
SHERRY BOUGHT A FALL LEAF SWAG AT THE DOLLAR STORE.
WE TOOK THE RED RIBBON OFF THE BURLAP SACK AROUND THE
BOTTOM OF THE TREE AND TIED RAFFIA AROUND IT. WE WRAPPED
THE LIGHTS AROUND THE LEAF GARLAND AND THEN MY SWEET DH
WRAPPED IT UP AND AROUND THE TREE. I PUT THE CROWN
ON THE TOP OF THE TREE......THE UNIQUE WITCHES HAT THAT LYNN
MADE....I AM NEVER ONE TO BRAG BUT I MUST SAY, "IT IS AWESOME!"

WE PUT THE 3 FOOT TREE ON MY GLASS COFFEE TABLE. WE HAVE RUN
OUT OF ROOM WITH THE HOSPITAL BED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE
LIVING ROOM. I HAVE A LIVING ROOM/ FORMAL DINING ROOM
COMBINATION AND WE HAVE BOXES OF SUPPLIES, AND STACKS AND
STACKS OF STUFF.
AROUND THE BOTTOM OF THE TREE IS THE AWESOME SIGN LYNN
PAINTED, I'LL GET YOU MY PRETTY...A BOTTLE OF WITCH HAZEL
SHE MADE....2 PUMPKINS MY SISTER SHERRY MADE FROM A VINTAGE
BEDSPREAD...A BASKET WITH ACORNS FROM CHAR AT
A LEAF DISH THAT DOES NOT SHOW UP...A PUMPKIN STRAW FROM
A FRIEND OF AMY'S AND LEILA'S AND ON THE CHAIR BESIDE THE
TREE, A GORGEOUS SCARECROW SENT FROM BARBARA...
ON THE LEFT SIDE OF THE TREE IS A SCARECROW MY MOTHER
PURCHASED FOR AMY 3 WEEKS AGO. AND ON THE BEDSIDE TABLE
BEHIND THE TREE IS A BOUQUET OF FLOWERS, THAT LEILA'S
SISTER, SHERRY SENT HER TODAY. THEY ARE SCATTERED
ABOUT WITH GLITTER, SOMETHING I HAVE NOT SEEN BEFORE
AND IT IS JUST GORGEOUS TO LOOK AT. IF YOU LOOK CLOSE IN THE
TREE, YOU WILL SEE A WIZARD OF OZ CARD, THAT CAME FOR AMY
TODAY FROM A FRIEND OF LAURIE'S AT BARGAIN HUNTING.
ALSO IN THE TREE IS A PRETTY HANDMADE PUMPKIN FROM CHAR.


THIS IS OUR PRECIOUS ANDY...SOMETIMES CALLED ANDREW...AND
SOMETIMES CALLED ANDY PANDY BUT ALWAYS LOVED. HE IS OUR
PRECIOUS ANDY THAT WE RAISED FROM 6 DAYS OLD...WE ARE
HIS PARENTS AND NO MATTER WHAT WE DO, HE IS ALWAYS IN THE
MIDDLE OF IT. HE HAS THE SWEETEST LITTLE PERSONALITY.....
AND HE THINKS THE TREE IS JUST FOR HIM AND THE SCARECROW,
BARBARA SENT......HIS NEW BEST FRIEND.




AN UPDATE ON AMY DAWN:

THIS IS AMY WITH HER DOROTHY WIG ON AND THE DRESS LAYED



ACROSS HER, WHERE HER TRACH AND MASS CAN NOT BE SEEN.



SHE WAS SO VERY HAPPY THE DAY MY SISTER SHERRY AND MOTHER



BROUGHT THIS COSTUME. SHE GRINNED FROM EAR TO EAR.



THE BEAUTIFUL PILLOW CASES WERE SENT TO HER WHILE SHE



WAS IN THE HOSPITAL. THEY WERE MADE BY THE BEAUTIFUL



MICHELLE AT:



http://rosebudquilting.blogspot.com



THOSE PILLOW CASES FOLLOWED HER INTO ICU AND SHE ONLY HAS



THEM OFF FOR LAUNDERING. AT THE FOOT OF HER BED YOU CAN



KINDA SEE THE QUILT SHE MADE HER.



THE RED CORD WRAPPED AROUND HER WRIST IS HER MUSTARD



SEED NECKLACE THAT SHE HAS NOT BEEN ABLE TO WEAR



AROUND HER NECK SINCE SHE HAD HER TRACH PLACED.





WE HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO WEIGH AMY SINCE SHE BECAME BEDFAST. WE

FIGURE SHE PROBABLY WEIGHS 48 POUNDS. WE ARE AFRAID WHEN WE

REPOSITION HER, WE WILL EITHER BREAK A BONE OR TEAR SKIN.

HER COLLAR BONE WITH SKIN IS ALL YOU SEE FOR SHOULDERS...YOU

CAN PUT YOUR THUMB AND FINGER ON EACH SIDE OF HER COLLAR BONE AND

TOUCH YOUR FINGER TIPS TOGETHER BECAUSE SHE IS JUST SKIN FROM FRONT

TO BACK....YOU JUST CAN'T DESCRIBE IT.

FRIDAY-SUNDAY WAS VERY BAD FOR HER...THE LEFT JAW HAS LIKE COLLASPED IN

AND SO WHEN YOU TRY TO SET HER UP SHE JUST MOANS OUT AND

TRIES TO ARCH HER BACK AND HER EYES ARE WILD, LIKE A DEER CAUGHT

IN HEAD LIGHTS.

SHE HAS EXCHANGED PURSES AND BLACKBERRIES FOR A REMOTE CONTOL,

A MIRROR, HER BED CONTROL...ANYTHING THAT FITS NICELY IN HER

HAND AND SHE CAN MOVE AND WAVE IT AROUND. SHE KNOWS PEOPLE BUT

IS NOT ABLE TO COMMUNICATE EXCEPT ON A VERY BASIC LEVEL...SHE HAS

A HAND MOTION FOR WHEN SHE WANTS A SPONGE TOOTHETTE DIPPED IN

WATER AND SHE KEEPS IT IN HER MOUTH LIKE IT IS A LOLLIPOP.

SHE IS GENERALLY HAPPY AND SMILES READILY. PASTOR MARNEY SAID

IT AMAZES HIM HOW SHE CAN SMILE WITH ALL HER PROBLEMS. SHE HAS

THE MANNERISMS OF SOMEONE WITH SEVERE BRAIN TRAUMA.





RICHIE, AMY'S BROTHER IS QUITE ANGRY. WE HAVE ALL HAD OUR DANCE
WITH ANGER. WE WILL NEVER KNOW WHY SHE MUST SUFFER SO. I DON'T KNOW
WHY SOME PEOPLE DIE INSTANTLY AND SOME SUFFER AND WASTE WHILE IT
RIPS THEIR FAMILY APART WITH GRIEF...BUT I TRUST GOD AND I KNOW THAT
HE NEVER LEAVES US OR FORSAKES US. JESUS KNOWS REJECTION, ISOLATION,
PAIN AND SUFFERING, ALONG WITH HUMILIATION. SINCE EVERY SINGLE
THING IS ABOUT BRINGING GLORY TO OUR FATHER IN HEAVEN, WE DO
NOT KNOW, WHO GOD IS TOUCHING THROUGH THE DETERMINATION OF AMY
TO BEAT CANCER. BUT EVEN AS IT SEEMS THE CANCER IS RAVAGING HER BODY...
AMY IS STILL SMILING AND STILL FIGHTING TO LIVE. I TOLD HER SHE
DESERVES A PURPLE HEART AND HER UNCLE TONY WHO WAS IN THE MARINES,
THINKS SHE DESERVES A PURPLE HEART ALSO.
SATURDAY MY SWEET BIL, BOB, DROVE MY MIL, IRENE, AND MY FIL, AJ, OVER
FROM TULSA TO VISIT. AMY HAS LOST AT LEAST 60 POUNDS SINCE THEY SAW THEIR
GRANDDAUGHTER LAST. MY MIL, IRENE IS IN HER 80'S AND IS IN CONSTANT
PAIN. IT TOOK A MIRACLE FOR HER TO BE ABLE TO COME.
SHE IS A SURVIVOR OF BREAST CANCER, AND LUNG CANCER. SHE FELL AND
BROKE HER SHOULDER JOINT OFF....WENT THROUGH SURGERY...SHE HAS SEVERE
ARTHRITIS AND SHE IS EITHER CRYING IN PAIN OR TAKING MEDICINE THAT
MAKES HER SLEEP ALL THE TIME.
WE KEPT A TOWEL OVER AMY'S MASS AND TRACH. WE TRIED TO DISCOURAGE
THEM FROM COMING BECAUSE OF THEIR HEALTH BUT THEY FELT THEY SHOULD.
AMY KNEW THEM AND GRANDMOTHER BROUGHT HER NUMEROUS STUFFED
ANIMALS.
I TELL YOU MY FRIENDS, THIS IS A VERY DIFFICULT ROAD. SOME DAYS
THERE ARE BOULDERS THAT JUST SEEM IMPOSSIBLE TO GET OVER BUT
THE WORD OF GOD IS ALIVE AND IF YOU CRY ENOUGH TEARS YOU WILL JUST
FLOAT OVER THE BOULDERS...LOL..BUT IT WORKS WHILE CLEANSING THE PORES
OF YOUR SKIN.
SO MANY PEOPLE ARE IN NEED OF PRAYER...AMY, LEILA AND KORBIE, BILL AND
KERRIE, ROY AND ELISABETH, CEEKAY, DEANNA, SALLY, WILL AND CASS,
IRENE, MRS. MARNEY'S SURGERY, BECCA, DORIS AND RICHARD, TAWNA AND
MIKE, JAMIE, ANDREW, TAMMY, JENNIFER AND THE LOSS OF HER PRECIOUS CAT,
DENNETTE'S SON, LADY PENNIWIG'S JOB INTERVIEW, MEGAN AND RICHIE, BRANDON,
ERIC, ROBBI AND JEFF, REBECCA AND HER DAD, AUNT JEAN AND UNCLE BILLY,
PATRICIA, KIPPEY, KIMBERT, BOBBY, MADONNA, DONNA, CLIFFORD
+++++++++++++
THE GREATEST THING WE CAN DO FOR SOMEONE IS TO PRAY FOR THEM.
I KNOW IT IS YOUR PRAYERS THAT HAVE KEPT ME SANE AND AMY A LIVE.
WE EACH MUST DECIDE FOR OUR SELVES WHAT QUALITY OF LIFE MEANS TO US.
IF AMY IS LIVING IN THE QUALITY OF LIFE, I BEG DEAR LORD TO
NEVER EXPERIENCE THAT KIND OF QUALITY BUT THEN WHO ARE WE TO SAY.
IT WAS DECIDED WHEN WE WERE BEING KNITTED IN OUR MOTHER'S WOMB
THE DAY WE WOULD BE BORN AND THE DAY WE WOULD DIE....AND WE ARE
TO GIVE THANKS TO THE FATHER FOR EVERY DAY...EVERY MINUTE AND
EVERY SECOND.
+++++++++++++++
O LORD, IF YOU HEAL ME, I WILL
BE TRULY HEALED; IF YOU SAVE
ME, I WILL BE TRULY SAVED.
MY PRAISES ARE FOR YOU ALONE!
~JEREMIAH 17:14








FOR YOU WHO FEAR MY NAME,
THE SUN OF RIGHTEOUSNESS
WILL RISE WITH HEALING IN HIS
WINGS. AND YOU WILL GO FREE,
LEAPING WITH JOY LIKE CALVES
LET OUT TO PASTURE.
~MALACHI 4:2







ANGEL HUGS TO EACH ONE OF YOU















Tuesday, October 13, 2009

I MET A MAN WITHOUT LIMBS

I SAW A SHOW WITH THE MOST AWESOME MAN.




26 YEAR OLD NICK VUJICIC.









IF YOU ARE EVER FEELING DOWN AND HOPELESS AND FEEL GOD




HAS DESERTED YOU AND YOU HAVE NO PURPOSE IN LIFE, DROP BY




NICK'S WEBSITE AND READ HIS TESTIMONY.




HE IS THE SON OF A PREACHER AND HIS PARENTS MOURNED AND




GRIEVED THE DAY HE WAS BORN. THEY, INCLUDING THE DOCTORS, FELT




THEIR NEW BORN BABY WAS FRAGILE AND MIGHT NOT LIVE VERY LONG.




WRONG!!!!!




HE WAS A HEALTHY BABY BOY WITHOUT LIMBS AND WHAT HE SAID IS




A CHICKEN BONE THAT HE USES AS A FOOT.





FACED WITH COUNTLESS CHALLENGES AND OBSTACLES, HE NOW HAS




FOUND HIS PURPOSE THROUGH JESUS CHRIST AND HAS TRAVELED TO




OVER 19 NATIONS SHARING HIS TESTIMONY.





I ALWAYS UPSET SOME PEOPLE WHEN I SAY THAT OUR PURPOSE IS TO




BRING GLORY TO OUR HEAVENLY FATHER, WINNING SOULS FOR THE




KINGDOM.




NICK FOUND HIS PURPOSE AT THE AGE OF 12 YEARS OLD, WHEN HE




GAVE HIS HEART TO JESUS AND ALL THE REJECTION HE FELT FROM




BEING BULLIED BY HIS PEERS WAS EXCHANGED FOR THE PEACE OF GOD.





HOW AMAZING TO EXPERIENCE GOD'S PERFECT PEACE IN ANY SITUATION.




"CONSIDER IT PURE JOY, MY BROTHERS, WHENEVER YOU FACE TRIALS




OF MANY KINDS."



~JAMES 1:2





CONSIDER IT PURE JOY......THE JOY OF THE LORD IS OUR STRENGTH...A MERRY




HEART DOETH GOOD LIKE A MEDICINE....JOY...JOY




IF THE devil CAN steal YOUR JOY he HAS ROBBED YOU OF AN ESSENTIAL




NUTRIENT THAT KEEPS YOUR HEART BEATING. THE devil COMES TO




STEAL, KILL, AND DESTROY YOUR MARRIAGE...YOUR DREAMS...YOUR HOPE...




YOUR CHILDREN...YOUR HOME...YOU NAME IT AND he WILL ROB YOU OF IT.





EVERYONE WANTS TO BLAME GOD...IT IS HIS FAULT...IT IS NOT GOD'S FAULT.
IT IS APPOINTED ONCE THAT WE WILL "ALL" DIE...EVERY HAIR ON OUR
HEAD IS NUMBERED.




JESUS IS THE SAME AS HE WAS YESTERDAY AND WILL BE TOMORROW.




HE WILL NEVER LEAVE US OR FORSAKE US.




"HOW PRECIOUS TO ME ARE YOUR THOUGHTS, O GOD! HOW VAST IS THE




SUM OF THEM! WERE I TO COUNT THEM, THEY WOULD OUTNUMBER




THE GRAINS OF SAND!"



~PSALM 139: 17-18




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I THINK THAT OUR TRIALS, OUR HURTS, OUR GRIEF.......ALL UNITE TO MAKE US




STRONGER AND MORE DEPENDENT ON THE LORD... TO DESIRE THE PRESENCE OF




THE HOLY SPIRIT AND STRIVE TO BE MORE LIKE JESUS




THAN WE EVER DID BEFORE.............AND THAT IS OUR PURPOSE...




TO BE AN INSPIRATION TO OTHERS...




TO ENCOURAGE OTHERS WHEN THEIR TIME COMES TO WALK THAT ROMAN
ROAD THAT JESUS WALKED. THE ROMAN ROAD THAT JESUS CARRIED
ME DOWN WHEN I THOUGHT I COULD NOT MAKE IT ANOTHER STEP.
JESUS...JESUS...I LOVE YOU SO
THANK YOU LORD FOR BEING THERE
WHEN MY HEART COULD NOT UTTER A SOUND
JESUS...JESUS...I LOVE YOU SO
THANK YOU LORD FOR HELPING ME REMEMBER
IT IS IN YOU LORD, MY PEACE AND SALVATION IS FOUND
JESUS...JESUS...I LOVE YOU SO




WHATEVER YOUR TRADEGY WAS/IS WILL BECOME VICTORY WHEN YOU REACH




OUT TO HELP SOMEONE ELSE.
JESUS WAS ALWAYS BUSY, DOING THE WORK OF HIS FATHER.




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AN UPDATE ON AMY........




LAST NIGHT WAS VERY STRANGE....A DEAR FRIEND SUGGESTED I SING ON




THE WINGS OF A SNOW WHITE DOVE TO AMY AND SO I DID.




SHE BEGAN TO LAUGH AND LAUGH....THEN I LAUGHED AND TOLD HER,



"SHE LOOKED LIKE THE CAT THAT ATE THE CANARY". HER EYES WERE NOT



WITH ME AND SHE KEPT TRYING TO SCOOT OUT THE FOOT OF THE BED.....




BUT SHE CONTINUED TO LAUGH LIKE SHE HAD A SECRET.




IF A STRANGER WOULD HAVE COME IN THEY WOULD HAVE THOUGHT WE




WERE DRUNK....AMY AND I DO NOT DRINK.....WE WERE DRUNK IN THE JOY



OF THE HOLY GHOST.




THIS MORNING SHE IS VERY GUARDED.....I HAVE HAD TO SUCTION HER



TRACH VERY FREQUENTLY. SHE IS ANXIOUS...SHE PATS MY ARM AND SHE



IS VERY ASHEN. I TOLD HER WHAT DAY IT WAS AND SHE GAVE A



LOOK OF SURPRISE. IT IS EASY TO LOOSE TRACT WHEN YOU ARE NOT



OUT AND ABOUT.



SHE IS SO THIN.



MY SISTER JUST CALLED AND THEY FOUND AMY A DOROTHY OUTFIT FOR



HALLOWEEN....A CHILD'S SIZE 8-10. SHE IS JUST A LITTLE



SKELETON IN BODY.



I HAVE FOUND PEACE....GOD'S PEACE AND IT WILL ALL BE OKAY BECAUSE



I TRUST GOD AS MUCH AS I EVER HAVE. I CANNOT IMAGINE A LIFE



WITHOUT MY BELOVED AMY BUT SHE WILL FLY HOME FREE WHEN GOD



CALLS HER AND NOT A MINUTE BEFORE THEN........UNTIL THEN, WE WILL



ENJOY EVERY SECOND BOTH SAD AND HAPPY....AT LEAST AMY'S DOROTHY



COSTUME WILL HANG WHERE SHE CAN SEE IT AND IT WILL BE A SYMBOL



THAT WE ARE STILL FIGHTING WITH HER FOR A MIRACLE.
ANGEL HUGS
LOVE
Debbie
MY SISTER AND MOTHER BROUGHT AMY HER COSTUME. I PUT THE
DOROTHY WIG ON HER AND WE LAYED THE DRESS ACROSS HER, HIDING
HER TRACH AND MASS. FOR JUST A MOMENT ALL WAS RIGHT WITH THE WORLD.
AMY DREW HER LEGS UP AND TOOK HER SHOES OFF AND CLICKED THE
HEELS TOGETHER THREE TIMES....YOU COULD SEE HER LITTLE MOUTH
MOVING 3 TIMES AS SHE COUNTED...............AND SHERRY SAID,
"THAT'S RIGHT AMY, THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME."
WE ALL LAUGHED, INCLUDING LEILA, THAT THIS IS THE FIRST YEAR
THAT AMY IS READY FOR HALLOWEEN BEFORE ANY ONE ELSE.
THANK YOU SWEET SHERRY AND MOTHER. YOU BROUGHT SUCH JOY
TO AMY AND ME.






Sunday, October 11, 2009

AMY DAWN, MY BUTTERFLY

THIS IS A PICTURE OF AMY WITH DR. DEXEUS LAST HALLOWEEN, 2008.
IT WAS A VERY HAPPY TIME FOR HER, PASSING OUT BAGS OF CANDY
THAT WE HAD MADE FOR ALL THE STAFF. 30 MINUTES LATER SHE
HAD A FEVER AND WAS RECEIVING IV ANTIBIOTICS.
AMY IS VERY CRITICAL AS I TYPE THIS. SHE IS IN PAIN EVERY WHERE
AND FOR THE FIRST TIME, WE HAVE TO POSITION HER AND SHE CRIES
OUT IN PAIN. I SHOULD SAY IT IS THE FIRST TIME SHE WILL
ALLOW US TO POSITION HER.
MY HEART IS SO FULL OF PAIN AS I TELL YOU WITHOUT AN
INSTANT MIRACLE, OUR AMY IS ABOUT TO FLY FREE.
I WANTED TO THANK ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE BEEN SO VERY
KIND TO HAVE MADE HER LAUGH AND SMILE THROUGH THE
BEAUTIFUL CARDS AND GIFTS YOU HAVE SENT.
YOUR KINDNESS WILL NEVER GO UNNOTICED AND YOU WILL
BE REMEMBERED FOREVER BY THIS FAMILY, ESPECIALLY ME.
WHAT DO I WANT YOU TO KNOW:
1. AMY IS MY ONLY DAUGHTER AND SHE HAS BROUGHT ME, HER
DAD, AND HER ONLY BROTHER SUCH GREAT JOY, AS WELL AS
HER GRANDPARENTS. SHE WAS THE FIRST GRANDCHILD ON THE RAGAN
SIDE AND BOY WAS SHE SPOILED.
2. SHE HAS TAUGHT US HOW TO BE BRAVE AND NEVER, EVER GIVE
UP THE FIGHT...SHE LOVES LIFE
3. TO STAND FIRM IN WHAT YOU BELIEVE AND SOMETIMES BEING
STUBBORN IS A GOOD THING
4. SHE IS A BEAUTIFUL ARTIST
5. THAT HER HEART IS AS BIG AS ALL OF TEXAS AND OKLAHOMA
TOGETHER
6. SHE LOVES ANIMALS ESPECIALLY DOGS AND CATS
7. SHE IS A CHRISTIAN....THAT SHOULD BE ON THE TOP
OF THE LIST
8. SHE WAS DUE TO BE BORN ON MAY 27, 1976 AND WAS TAKEN
BY EMERGENCY C-SECTION ON 7/6/76........OH THAT IS RIGHT
ALMOST 2 MONTHS OVERDUE....SHE WAS IN TROUBLE AND
WE ALMOST LOST HER AT BIRTH.......SHE HAS KEPT US
WAITING EVER SINCE.....(THE CANCER RESEARCH TEAM MADE
NOTE OF THAT FACT WHEN SHE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH CANCER
AS A CHILD...IF A CHILD DIAGNOSED WITH RHABDOMYOSARCOMA
WAS ALSO A BABY THAT WAS OVERDUE)
9. FRIENDS AND FAMILY ARE VERY IMPORTANT TO HER
10. SHE COLLECTS BARBIE DOLLS AND HAS OVER 350, AND
ONLY ONE OF THEM HAS EVER BEEN OUT OF THE BOX
11. SHE IS A LOYAL FRIEND WHO IS ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU
12. SHE HAS LOTS OF FRIENDS BUT ONLY ONE BEST FRIEND,
NAMED LEILA, WHO ALSO HAD CANCER
13. SHE LOVES HALLOWEEN AND IT IS ALWAYS A BIG DEAL
FOR WHAT SHE IS GOING TO BE EVERY YEAR....MY CLOSET IS
FULL OF HER COSTUMES....NOT THE CLOSET AT HER HOUSE
BUT MY HOUSE. SHE PLANS TO BE DOROTHY OF THE
WIZARD OF OZ THIS YEAR
I AM REALLY JUST WASTING TIME...I SET AT HER BEDSIDE AND
THEN I BECOME SO OVERCOME WITH GRIEF I HAVE TO COME
TYPE IT OUT....I HAVE TO GET THE GRIEF OUT SO I CAN GO BACK
AND SMILE. THE WAY WE LOOK AT EACH OTHER, WE DON'T HAVE
TO SPEAK. AMY KNOWS SHE IS SO SICK.
PLEASE PRAY FOR US ALL.
ANGEL HUGS
LOVE
Debbie

Friday, October 9, 2009

"I'LL GET YOU MY PRETTY"

RECENTLY HAD AN AWESOME GIVE AWAY.....IN THE COMMENTS
YOU HAD TO TELL HOW YOU WERE A ...."WITCH!"
ARE YOU A GOOD WITCH OR A BAD WITCH?
I LOVE THAT LINE FROM THE MOVIE THE WIZARD OF OZ!
I'LL TELL YOU HERE LATELY MY HUSBAND WOULD PROBABLY
SAY I WAS A BAD WITCH. EMOTIONS RUN VERY HIGH WHEN
THERE IS A SICK LOVED ONE IN THE HOME, SUCH AS OUR
DAUGHTER, AMY DAWN.
I WON! I WON! I WON!
HOORAY I WON!




TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE
WHEN THE CLOUDS DANCED AROUND THE MOON



WOULD BE ARRIVING SOON




AS NIGHT TURNED TO DAY
A BIG BLACK CROW SOARED UP AND AWAY
THE RUSTY CROW LOVED NEEDFUL THINGS
HE HOPED ABOVE HOPE IT CONTAINED SOME BLING
THE BOX ARRIVED AT THE ANGEL PORCH WITH CARE
BUT........
IT WAS CARRIED INSIDE BY THE MAN OF THE HOUSE
AND.......
ALL THE RUSTY CROW COULD DO..... WAS SET ON THE
ANGEL PORCH AND STARE








EVEN AS THE BOX WAS BEING OPENED
SO AMY DAWN COULD SEE
THE OLD RUSTY CROW CAWED,
"I'LL GET YOU MY PRETTY!
THAT IS A PROMISE FROM ME!"













THE BOX WAS A TREASURE CHEST OF BEAUTIFULLY WRAPPED
ITEMS. BEING AN OKLAHOMA STATE UNIVERSITY...OSU...FAN,
IT WAS DELIGHTFUL TO SEE THE ORANGE TISSUE PAPER WITH
PRETTY ORANGE RIBBONS.
MY DH, ME, AND AMY OOHED AND AWED OVER EVERY ITEM
AS IT CAME OUT OF THE BOX. IT WAS AS EXCITING AS
CHRISTMAS.









I HAVE WATCHED COMMERCIALS ABOUT THE LINDT
LINDOR TRUFFLES. NO ONE IN MY LITTLE IMMEDIATE
FAMILY HAVE EVER HAD A TRUFFLE.
I LIKE CANDY THAT HAS COCONUT AND NUTS GENERALLY.......
BUT OH MY!!!!! THESE TRUFFLES ARE SINFULLY GOOD.
THEY NEED TO BE PUT IN FINE CRYSTAL AND SERVED ON
CHINA, ONCE A DAY AT 4 PM. SOOOOOO VERY GOOD.
THANK YOU LYNN. MY DH AND I LEFT THE ROOM TO TRY A
TRUFFLE, SINCE OUR DAUGHTER TAKES NOTHING BY MOUTH....
SQUEALS AND GIGGLES OF DELIGHT.....VERY GOOD.








AWESOME BOTTLE OF WITCH HAZEL........IT HAS A VERY UNIQUE
TEXTURE ON THE BOTTLE. IT LOOKS AS IF IT IS A THOUSAND YEARS
OLD AND HAD BEEN COOKED AND BOILED FOR SOME TIME. A
UNIQUE PIECE OF ART......LOVED IT.





































THIS HAT IS SO UNIQUE. I WILL TREASURE IT FOR YEARS TO COME. IT
IS SIGNED UNDERNEATH THE BRIM. IT LOOKS VERY, VERY OLD. IT HAS
TWO RUSTY BELLS AND SWEET ANNIE ON IT....A PICTURE JUST DOES NOT
DO LYNN'S WORK JUSTICE. IT IS ALSO QUITE HEAVY.












THE SIGN IS AWESOME. I LOVE IT. IT IS GORGEOUS....MADE WITH
PERFECTION. OH LYNN, YOU ARE AN AWESOME ARTIST.
YOU CERTAINLY HAVE MADE MY DH, ME, AND AMY SO HAPPY
UNWRAPPING THIS BOX OF JOY AND IMAGINATION.






























YUMMY POTPOURRI



















SMELLS SO VERY GOOD















MEET MY PRECIOUS LITTLE PUNKIN' FRIENDS

















JUST LOOK AT THAT FACE....
HE SOOOOOOO WARMS THE HEART
YOU JUST WANT TO SQUEEZE HIS CHEEKS




















ADORABLE




















HE REMINDS ME OF THE OLD GOOFY GRAPE





















HE'S SHY.....A LITTLE SHRINKING VIOLET






















JUST LOOK AT THOSE EYES























WE DIDN'T GET THE 5TH PUNKIN IN THIS PHOTOGRAPH BUT
THESE CUTE DARLINGS WERE MADE BY LYNN....OUT OF
"LIGHTBULBS."
THESE ARE THE SWEETEST, CUTEST, AND MOST CHERISHED LITTLE
PUMPKINS I HAVE EVER SEEN.
THEY WERE NOT PART OF THE GIVE AWAY BUT I HAD MADE A
COMMENT TO LYNN ABOUT HOW ADORABLE THEY WERE. SHE HAD
MADE A PUMPKIN TREE.
WHAT I AM GOING TO DO IS BUY AN ARTIFICIAL CHRISTMAS TREE.
I AM GOING TO PUT THE HAT ON TOP OF THE TREE.
MY MOTHER FOUND HERSELF SOME CANDY CORN LIGHTS.
I WANT TO FIND SOME CANDY CORN LIGHTS AND SOME LITTLE ORANGE
LIGHTS TO PUT AROUND THE TREE WITH SWAGS OF ARTIFICIAL LEAVES
WRAPPED AROUND AND THEN HANG THESE PRECIOUS PUMPKINS.
I'LL POSITION THE SIGN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE TREE AND SET
SOME RED SPARKLY SHOES AT THE BOTTOM WITH SOME PUMPKINS...
REAL PUMPKINS THAT IS.
AMY WILL LOVE IT.























THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH LYNN. WHAT A BEAUTIFUL GIVE AWAY.






IF YOU HAVE NOT BEEN TO LYNN'S BLOG YOU ARE MISSING A REAL






TREAT. SHE IS SO CREATIVE AND TALENTED AND FUNNY.







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UPDATE ON AMY:



SOME OF YOU MAY HAVE HEARD THROUGH HEIDI, MY NIECES BLOG



THAT AMY IS NOT DOING WELL. ON WEDNESDAY SHE STARTED BLEEDING IN



AND AROUND HER TRACH. EVEN AS I TYPE THIS, I RUN BACK AND



FORTH CHECKING ON HER AS SHE STILL HAS THICK BLOOD COME UP.
SHE HAS THROWN UP BLOOD AND HAS IT IN HER THICK URINE.
THE MASS HAS STARTED PIN HOLE LEAKS AND IT IS LEAKING




SLOWLY EVERYWHERE. WE CHANGE DRESSINGS ABOUT EVERY 30



MINUTES. SHE WANTS SOMEONE BESIDE HER AT ALL TIMES....SO
WHEN SHE OPENS HER EYES SHE CAN SEE YOU.
AMY IS SO ILL. SO EMACIATED. NAUSEATED ALL THE TIME.
SHE SLEEPS VERY LITTLE.
THANK YOU FAITHFUL FRIENDS THAT HAVE SENT HER CARDS OVER
AND OVER. GOD HAS YOUR NUMBER AND YOUR BEAUTIFUL DEEDS TO
MAKE HER LIFE BRIGHTER WILL NOT BE IN VAIN.
THANK YOU FOR CONTINUING TO PRAY FOR AMY.

PLEASE REMEMBER THE FOLLOWING PEOPLE IN PRAYER:
MY AUNT JEAN HAD SURGERY ON THE 6TH. I TALKED TO HER WEDNESDAY,
I BELIEVE AND SHE WAS STILL IN ICU BUT THOUGHT THEY WERE GOING
TO MOVE HER OUT.....ASHLEY...ANDREW...SALLY...LEILA AND KORBIE...
WILL...CASS...BARBARA...SHERRY...MARYDON...ROY AND ELISABETH...
JACOB...JAMIE...TERRY'S HUSBAND...DANNY...TAMMY...DORIS AND
RICHARD...SIMRAN...MOMMA B AND HER HUSBAND...BILL AND KARRIE...
MISS K AND REBECCA...PATRICIA...DENNIS...BOBBY...JAY AND SUZANNE...
JOE...JOHN...MONTE...AJ AND IRENE...BECCA...TAWNA AND MIKE
DEAR HEAVENLY FATHER
I COME TO YOU WITH A HEAVY HEART FOR ALL THE PEOPLE IN SUCH NEED
OF YOUR HEALING TOUCH. YOU KNOW THEIR NAMES LORD, THEIR CONDITION,
AND THEIR LOCATION. I KNOW THAT IT IS IN THE VALLEY LORD THAT WE
BUILD CHARACTER AND INCREASE OUR INDEPENDENCE ON YOU LORD.
I KNOW THAT YOUR WORD SAYS, THAT BY YOUR STRIPES WE ARE HEALED.
I TRUST YOU LORD. I LOVE YOU LORD. I KNOW THAT YOU KNOW ALL
THINGS AND WILL NOT LET ANYONE PLUCK US FROM YOUR HAND. I
HAVE TO BE HONEST LORD, I DON'T UNDERSTAND. I AM ANGRY AT TIMES
LORD AND EVEN THOUGH I KNOW YOU HAVE NOT LEFT ME, I FEEL ALONE.
IF I TRUST YOU FOR MY SALVATION THEN I HAVE TO TRUST THAT HEALING
IS ALSO MINE. LORD YOU KNOW I HAVE BEEN IN THE DEEP WATER...I
DIDN'T DROWN BUT THE PAIN WAS SEVERE.....I HAVE BEEN THROUGH THE
FIRE AND I DID NOT GET BURNED BUT THE PAIN WAS GREAT. I DON'T
KNOW WHERE I AM AT NOW LORD BUT I FEEL CRUSHED BUT YOU
TOOK THE STRESS BUT THE PAIN IS UNBEARABLE. I KNOW I CAN DO
ALL THINGS WHICH STRENGTHENTH ME, LORD BUT I CAN'T MAKE
AMY WELL. I CAN'T TAKE HER PAIN AWAY. I CAN'T....I CAN'T....
ONLY YOU CAN HEAL HER FATHER GOD. ONLY YOU CAN HEAL ANDREW,
ASHLEY, ROY, AND BILL AND CEEKAY.




I THANK YOU FATHER GOD FOR MY LIFE. I THANK YOU FOR EVERY



DAY WITH AMY, RICHIE AND MY FAMILY. I THANK YOU FOR



LOVING ME AND I PRAISE YOUR HOLY NAME. BLESS EACH BLOGGER,




LORD, THAT COMES TO THIS BLOG. LET ME BE AN INSPIRATION, NOT



A PLACE THEY DREAD TO COME. LET MY HEART NOT BECOME



HARDENED LORD. LET ME ALWAYS LOVE AND CARE AND PRAY FOR


PEOPLE










YOU ARE EACH ONE CHERISHED AND I THANK YOU FOR SPENDING




A PART OF YOUR DAY WITH ME.....



EVEN THOUGH IT IS SO SAD AT TIMES BUT YOU ARE MY HEART...THE



VERY ONES I CAN BE HONEST WITH WHEN MY HEART IS BREAKING...



WHEN IT FEELS TO PAINFUL TO BREATH...YOU ARE MY LIFELINES.


GRAPHICS BY MY FRIEND LADY PENNIWIG
SHE DOESN'T CHARGE A SINGLE PENNY BUT IF SHE HAD A
PENNY FOR EVERYONE SHE GAVE AWAY...SHE WOULD BE WEALTHY.
STOP BY AND SEE HER





ANGEL HUGS AND MUCH LOVE